muahahahahahahah...
serasa donia ini aku yang punya....
to most of the people who really knows me, you know wat i am talking about....yeah yeah yeah !!!!
anyway..i am having so much fun now..

p/s: no worries...no more tears!!!
       i am as happy as i cud be....

how i wish i cud just take away my life right now, here in this bloody farking noisy internet cafe...life has just been too awful since he-who-cud-not-be-named came back from oblivion....

i am literally living in HELL....

help me..!!!!!!

having a great time lah watching all the movies and enjoying a non-salty popcorn here in KL...he he he he..i do love the caramel popcorn combo in Mid Valley and adored the sitting arrangements for the couples *couple's seat* in the theatre hall....let's see...wat did i watched ek so far?

hye yeah peeps..

am oledi happy and having tonnes of fun here in KL..*for all you yang masih stuck in that god-forsaken place-->pity you!!*....have been here for quite sometime and yeah, had some probs solved and yeah rekindled old friendship...had fun lah knowing that some of my friends are oledi married *some even are waiting for new arrivals in their families-->tak sabo nampak!!*

okaylah ..

things in Malaysia??
my God...malaysians are so obsessed with this reality shows involving people singing and showing off their so-called talents on air..*gosh, reality check for all of them....* there are Audition, Who Will Win the Malaysian Topstar, Bintang RTM and the ever popular -->AKADEMI FANTASIA....but truthfully AF contestants this year IS WAY BETTER than last year's...no more pathetic people trying to show their non-existence talents but yeah, you can't kill drama mama's kan?? those people are those yang call up the ratings for the show...

there are many people from across the south china seas but those people are damn talented...they can really sing and have good voices!!!salute....!!

from behind: Adam, Zahid, Fitri (kiut sangat sangat sangat!!), Kaer (sowang lagi mamat encem!), Anding and Bob
standing infront: Mas (power mama!!), Edlyn (Drama Mama), Farah, Linda (da bomb!), Farah, Zarina (the sweet one)

wat else ek is new in Msia?

nothing much lah ....

oh yeah, my parents are oledi in Malaysia...For those yang know my parents and haf read about them, they came back last Saturday with MAS flight from Newark, NY-Dubai-KL...my sister is. like taler than me and lankier ...she definitely cud pass as a model with her height and figure..Dad's happy he is finally on home ground and Mom basically is just happy to be home with us..

but that will not be long....Daddy will be moving to Kota Kinabalu in 3 weeks time , taking up  a post there for maybe 2 years kot *dunno....all these military thingy have always been giving me headaches!*

for my friends in KURSK.....SELAMAT MENDUDUKI PEPERIKSAAN !!!

to Razi, Awan, Juwey,

p/s: am having fun eating in malaysia that i put on more weight!!!!*muahahahahahha*

yesterday was a sad day for us as a lecturer from our Anatomy Dept lost her husband to cancer...Mdm *Dr* Lydia had always been talking about her husband and his ilnesses but then we never would expect him to go that soon...the funeral yesterday was definitely sad and everyone paid their respect to the deceased..

and as for me, today proved to be the most heart-aching of all...

went to Mdm Larissa, who in turn was holding my petition for the visa and all for almost 2 weeks and terefore forcing me to pay almost RB 750 for the blahdi visa...no, she didn't care that i had to fork up that much of money.no, she does things her way , that biatch!!!

but then..hey, am happy that will be getting my visa on the 29th May..am looking forward to go back home ASAP...cud not tahan lah this place!

hey guess wat?

nokia's CINEMA UNDER THE STARS *or something like that lah* is back again....am planning to catch most of the films arr...its has almost been forever that i did manage to see ovies in the cinema...

but a tad bit saddie *isk isk isk * as i wud not get the chance to watch BLACK EYED PEAS performing in Msia...huwaaaaaa!!!!!

and i guess..thats all for today...^_^

p/s: to that "friend"----> are u happy now????

hey all ...
i thot my ramblings in here reflected me and myself..

heard it on Juwey's laptop for quite some time now..its actually a very bitchy song but has been arranged and put in a very sentimental value..Eamon's not that bad looking afterall and Frankie..she's just Frankie, i guess.. anyway, the lyrics touched me in a way i never knew it would..so ladies and gentlemen.....give a round a applause to Eamon with F**k It

Whoa oh oh
Ooh hooh
No No No


See i dont, know why, i liked you so much
I gave you all, of my trust
I told you, i loved you, now thats all down the drain
Ya put me through pain, i wanna let u know how i feel


Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, they didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, they didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back


You thought, you could
Keep this shit from me, yeah
Ya burnt bitch, i heard the story
Ya played me, ya even gave him head
Now ya askin for me back
Ya just another hack, look elsewhere
Cuz ya done with me

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, they didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, they didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Oh oh Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh huh yeah

Ya questioned, if i care
You could ask anyone, i even said
Ya were my great one
Now its, over, but i do admit i'm sad
It hurts real bad, i cant sweat that, cuz i loved a hoe

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, they didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Oh oh Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh Oh oh

p/s:thank God i am not in this kinda relationship right now...

he hasn't been replying e-mails and sms's, and i dunt know why..

i am just sad , depressed and lonely all roll together, making it feel bad and horrible inside..

did i do something wrong?

if i did, why hasn't he told me anything about it?

and if i didn't, why is he keeping mum and making me go nuts over this?

do i deserve this?

half of me says YES..but the rest says NO!

on a more cheerful noe, me , razi , nina and gayathri had fun *at least something to keep my mind away from thinking more about my oh-so-dead relationship* chereographed the steps for MSA Prom Night..*most probably will go, i guess*

btw people, had updated few new pixies on my foto site, click HERE or just just go "down moi momeory lane" -->be on a lookout for it on the left side of the screen.

*sigh*

things hasn't been good and he has been swtching off his handphones and refusing to talk *tho he missed call me to know whether i am okay or not* i just feel bad, hopeless and useles....wat shud i do , guys?

right now am feeling a bit mellowed down and been listening to ning's songs couple of hundred times...for all those who are wondering, yeah i am a die-hard-fan of NING BAIZURA....*kipas-susa-mati-->direct translation to BM*

Dari bisikan naluri
Ada curiga destinasi
Cinta ini
Ingin mencari kepastian
Mengapa ia sembunyi
Akan hilang segalanya ceria
Sekiranya tiada kejujuran
Adakah ku mengejar mimpi
Bagai embun menjelang pagi

Dimanakah dia sinaran cahaya
Menyinar seri kewajahku
Hilangnya di mana

Pelayaran kita
Api dihujung samudera
Di antara mungkin dan curiga
Berilah kepastian
Arah penentuan
Yang abadi selamanya

Sunyi bersendiri
Di temani bintang berkerlipan
Purnama yang tersenyum mesra
Merestui cintakita pasti

Ku ingin bersamamu
Hadapi kenyataan itulah janji ku
Untuk mu

Mungkinkah kita
Bersama kembali memadu cinta
Mungkinkah kita kekal selamanya
Atau merasa curiga
Ku beradu antara
Mungkin dan curiga

p/s: rasa so pathetic lah skang nih .....huwaaaaaa!!! and to IM, SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI LAHIR YANG KE-21...the surprise party was tottaly a surprise...tak tahu lah dia terkejut ke pasal zaza mintak cili kering memalam buta...ataupun....dia tekejut tengok muka si Malique pegang kek semalam.....anyway, moga di permudahkan urusan dan di limpahkan rezeki....ZAZA SAYANG IM!

one of the disadvantages staying in an ex-communist country with a grudge with the oh-so-powerful-and-mighty-USA, is that the movies with English-talking characters are all dubbed in their mother tongue-->RUSSIAN LANGUAGE...

i saw the poster and the screening time posted on the YUONOST KINOTHEATRE ages ago and yet, the prospect of me sitting there with my ultra-hyper-salty-popcorn and comprehending not even a few lines of sensible po-ruski didn't seem like a good outing for me , or the rest of the clan...so we ended up waiting for parcel from Msia sending all those cetak rompak VCDs lah from the ever so loving siblings back home....^_^

yesterday after a long chit- chatting , dilly- dallying and such of the above...i proceed to gemburkan meja Razi and guess wat....new VCDs..*ntah mana mamat tu curi ntah?* and lookey here, LAST SAMURAI!!!!